ALL THE HATE (- inspired by ' A little life ') 

  All the hits I have;

those purple bruises that lay over my pale skin, 

those leaking and smelly warts portray their disgust, 

the bleeding cuts and foul bumps given as punishment, 

the never-ending snarky comments for I'm enfeebled. 

Running away is in vain. 

Standing up is futile. 

Hiding is fruitless. 

The smile is fake,  

being happy is stressful, 

to trust again is dangerous.  

To share my body is a shame, 

for the love that I have.... makes me do it again and again. 

Day by day my pieces shredding apart, 

why did you fall for a crippled?  

We talk, we fight, we make up and cuddle, 

for all I wanted was this.... then why was I left abandoned? 

To think I can have this life!!! 

Even you got sick and weary!  

Maybe called a tragic accident... for me it was a catastrophe.  

Left alone to drown in sorrows; 

add up my heartache; die in my misery. 

Scars increased; brain got numbed; 

 your shirts, your smell, those sweet nothing messages were my only allies.             

 Sooner than later, I realized... what is life when you aren't by my side? 

To think how to die was now not an obscure, 

for all it took to come to you was... an empty needle.

To see you was an excuse, for all I wanted was to commit it sooner.  

-TANISHA          

(A piece of Jude’s emotions from 'A Little Life-Hanya Yanagihara')